Choice

Last week wasnt particularly a good one..
I've withdraw one of my elective units..because i felt that i couldnt kept up with the speed and i seriously do not have the confident to pass..this was my last sem....meaning i definately cannot afford to fail..

Excuse?

I dont noe.. maybe it sound like an excuse for taking an easy way out.. an escape route from the stress that has been piling up on me since the begining of the sem.

i manage to claim back my exemption on this unit.
i thought i would be happy..
but i'm not..

the only teacher that i respect despies me for making such a irrational decision by giving up easily..especially when she felt that i have the potential in doing well in this unit but i gave in to my fear.
she wouldnt listen to what i want to say.. and i do not have the courage to say that i couldnt catch up.. and this decision had little to do with my only grp mate being MIA through out the course..

my family too feel that my choice was a mistake..

did i make the right choice?

i'm not sure... but i certainly felt tat this was the best choice for me after taking into consideration of most factors.. the only miscalculation i have was that my unit teacher would have understand why i made this decision.. and forgive me..
but with my grp mate departing from this unit soon after me..(P.S: i did offer my help to him..saying that i would do the project with him like nothing has happen..but he would be the one taking the credit..which i think it would be better..) sigh~ i dont think i would dare to show my face infront of her any more..

but i guess... taking up this course wasnt a bad thing to begin with..neither was the withdrawal of the unit..cos to be honest this unit is one of the most beneficial things i have learnt in this entire degree.. though i might have withdraw from the unit.. but it's was already coming to the end of the sem.. besides.. most of the things had been taught...
And at the end of the day.. when you graduate after spending so much $$, blood and tears.. you will only be getting a piece of nicely laminated, good quality paper that state "Degree of Business(marketing)" . what's impt is not the things that has been state on that piece of paper nor the list of subjects which u have been tested on the final... but wat u have learnt from subjects..